So it has been a full week since I received news that Luminosity Publishing wants to publish my book, Love Me Tender.
I was sitting in my bed watching the news, getting ready to start my day when my phone buzzes to tell me that I have a new email. I look at it and see that it is from Luminosity Publishing and let me tell you, my heart sank. For the last 6 weeks I had prepared myself for the big let down. So imagine my surprise when I open my email and it says that Luminosity wants to publish my book. I had to read it twice. As you can imagine, I started jumping up and down on my poor old bed with tears streaking down my face. I call my husband, Jim and proceed to try to tell him what was going on but I'm crying so hard he cant understand me. When I calm down enough, he tells me that he loves me and Congratulations. Well the next phone calls were to my family (all before 7:00 am.) and then my close friends. It was an exciting moment for me.
I spent the next couple of hours smiling and saying that I was going to be published out loud. Going to bed that night was when it really hit me. SHIT. I'm going to be published. The anxiety that I felt just letting my family read my writing set in, only on a much larger scale. This contract is a worldwide contract. Any and everyone will be reading this. It's exciting and terrifying all at the same time. I almost didn't accept. After a long discussion with my husband we decided that I had to.
I received the contract on Monday. After a few hours perusing the contract I decided that everything looked good but wanted to talk to a few people before I signed it. It was about this time that I realized that the hard work was just beginning. Writing the book and editing it myself for submission wasn't the hardest part and my dream was always to be published. Now that I am going to be published, what do I do now and now there is all this pressure to come up with a second and third book. It's not like writing for my family anymore.
After a mini anxiety attack I put my big girl panties on and signed that contract determined to make it my bitch. A few minutes after submitting it, I received an email welcoming me to Luminosity. YAY right? I can breath. In the attachments there are two forms. They aren't too long so I open them. A cover questionnaire and an author biography. There are two things I am terrible at. Talking about myself and making important decisions. Here we go again...
I am proud to say that I've made it through the Cover Questionnaire and am looking forward to seeing the end result. Now I just need to get through the author biography. Should be simple enough.
The whole reason I am blogging about this is because, I used to think dreams never came true and that maybe things just weren't meant to happen for people so they didn't. I thought I was one of those people. I followed my dream and it is coming true. I am learning something new about myself everyday and am learning so much. Even if you don't think you are good enough, try! Try and never give up! You are the only one who can make it happen and you'll regret not trying!